I know I said the decision was one made with positivity and happiness but I owe it to you – my beautiful readers – to go into a little more detail about my decision.
When deciding to shut things down, there were a number of factors that influenced my decision.
As you know, I started a new role in November. This job is completely different to my old role in that it’s a more senior position (I’m now a Director within a large government department), with more responsibility and a larger team to manage. In terms of time, I simply have none. I get to work at 9am and work through to 6.30pm each day with nary a second to check on YGN.
And I love it. For the first time in a long time, I love my job. As in, I wake up every morning knowing I will have no time to myself at all but that it’s all ok because the work I’m doing I believe in. It’s a beautiful thing.
Secondly, my health has played a role in this decision. I told you guys I was sick in December and was hospitalised. What I didn’t tell you guys was that I was 4-5 months pregnant and miscarried. Worst part was… I had no idea I was pregnant. Now, I’m not one of those silly ladies who is oblivious to the signs. I’ve been pregnant twice before. I KNOW what pregnancy looks and feels like. This time, there were no signs. So to suddenly miscarry in a hotel room – supremely traumatic and I’m still coming to terms with it.
But I do wonder, how crazy has my life become when I don’t even notice I’m pregnant. Is that a sign that I might have taken on too much? Perhaps.
Finally, I always said I blogged for love. And I don’t love it enough anymore to invest the time. It’s not YGN, it’s me. I’ve changed. My priorities have changed. The way I live my life has changed. And I’m not going to pretend and/or keep the blog running because of advertising / contra / prestige. I’m sticking to my principles: I blog for love and if I don’t love it anymore, I won’t do it.
Having said that, YGN holds a special place in my heart. I started it as an outlet to be creative. And the ride has been an absolute ball. I’ve enjoyed every second of it.
To my readers, thank you for all your support over the last two and a bit years. I love you all and I mean that sincerely.
I will keep the site up and and running and will continue to pay the hosting to keep it that way. So it will always be here, just not updated. If you need to contact me, the email address is firstname.lastname@example.org
I’m thinking about another blog but not for a while. A break is what’s needed. And, when I come back, it will probably be something entirely different. I honestly can’t predict what the future holds right now.
I’ll also be starting up a new Twitter ( https://twitter.com/#!/EastMalvernMass ), so if you want to follow me on there, you’re most welcome. It’s nonsensical of course, but what else would you expect from me, right? I’m currently investigating the important issue of whether Anna Paquin and the leader singer from KC and the Sunshine Band were separated at birth. I think they were.
On that note, I’m signing out. Thanks everyone!